Devastating day… or just some First World Problems

 

I thought all was going well today. Baby went to bed on time tonight. Husband and I had no real squabbles. But then… I accidentally reformatted my SD card!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For those of you who don’t know what that means its less than or equal to erasing your most dear photographic memories that you deemed superfluous for social media and/or extraneous. Also known as – deleting every picture off your fucking SD card.

Without panic – because I rarely panic these days – I went straight to the computer to see if there was a way to undo this awful deed. (but really in my mind I was like fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck in a kind of sing-songy way.)
As it turns out, a lot of people make this incredibly easy and unfortunate mistake (aka I felt better knowing this fuckery happens to a lot of people). So my spirits were lifted! I soon downloaded some software and followed the prompts.

Skipping ahead a few hours, okay 6, 6 hours) and learning terms like “number of passes” and “deep diving” (no, I’m not talking dirty, you wish) I ended up at a very dark place. My computer now contained photos that Picasso himself would lift an eyebrow and scoff at. Most photos looked like a sad attempt at a photo collage with over- or underexposure and with some really weird tints.

Don’t get me wrong, I did recover some photos, but not the meaningful ones, not the irreplaceable monthly baby photos that I had yet to save to my computer. WHY. OH GOD WHYYYYYYYY DIDN’T I SAVE THEM!!?!?!?

fuck.

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LDRs – Long Distance Relationships

LDRs are probably one of the most unnatural things that modern society has declared commonplace.

Not for one minute will I tell you that they are easy, or fun, or “make the heart grow fonder”. Nope, I’m not about that business.

Born an only child, I think of myself as quite independent. I’ve been there for myself more times than others, and I’m sure you can probably relate. The saying, “if you want something done right…” has infinite truths to it.

So, why then, am I creating such a hub bub about long distance relationships??

Aside from the fact that they are utterly awful; for someone like me, they are painful.

Just imagine, or maybe you can relate, you are an independent person with a personality that keeps you landing on your feet – regardless of the hardships you face. But suddenly, someone comes along and rocks this life boat that you’re on. He seems like a mirage or a siren. One of two things happen, you slowly fall in love with him (or her) like your feet sinking into wet sand or you totally fall into the ocean with him.

I fell. fast.

Love is one thing that is completely indeterminate, no matter how many poets, philosophers and artists try to define it.

I think there is one thing that you and I can agree on, however… you must develop a level of trust that is painstakingly personal. You give a little part of yourself to the other person to keep. You make it about more than yourself. You tie your souls together in sailor knots that are meant for the strongest sea winds.

And then something happens.

Life.

Suddenly, the life you thought you knew has discolored in a way. You find yourself having to make decisions, things you never thought you’d have to ask yourself.

“Do I love him enough?”    “Is this worth the trouble?”

All of these ridiculous thoughts flood your mind, thoughts that your previous self would have scoffed at in disbelief.

So finally you come to terms, you make a deal to try. 

Its unnatural. Its impersonal. Its one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do.
Living without a piece of myself, a man I love, has been challenging, and purifying.

I have become the best version of myself.

Everyday I wake up, I don’t think about myself first. I think about him. If you want to find out what kind of person you really are, be in a long distance relationship. They are awful, cruel and unnatural. But they make you decide to be selfish or considerate of a whole other life form. A life form that wants to share their life, their love, and their suffering with you.

No, I don’t think “distance makes the heart grow fonder”.
I think a good love will grow no matter the weather.

I hope you don’t mind my ramblings, metaphors and poor attempts at imagery. This is just simply a stream of consciousness. Here are the ramblings I promised you.

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Falling off the wagon…

I have nothing to say other than,
I was doing SO GOOD at the gym since mid-December.

THEN

My fiance’s mother was hurt in a car accident.
Sending him into emotional turmoil
Sending me into guilt-ridden hysteria
(since I can do absolutely nothing and am so far away)
So needless to say I haven’t felt very motivated…
and for the past TWO WEEKS, I’ve totally blown it.

I have 3 weeks to get back in the rhythm and look TOTALLY HOT
when he comes out to get me.

Time to STAY POSITIVE
(that was my new years resolution to myself)

Time to get back on the wagon!

Time to make no excuses.

———————————————————buzz on.

Public Eating Announcement

My “Just around the riverbend…” post has COME!

Whether its a first date, or a company brunch, society has this stigma around eating in public. Many people feel uncomfortable eating messy foods like pasta and burgers and, lets be honest, penis shaped foods are always awkward (bananas, ohemgee). Humans have this incredibly ridiculous notion that others judge them on what they eat. So, when making a first impression, or just a professional one, we tend to pick safe foods i.e. salads, sandwiches, or just the arbitrary coffee drinking. We like to present this best version of ourselves in order to mask our true preferences. I bet you never thought you’d hear anyone talk about food choice discrimination!

So, I got this idea to make everything I ate public for a whole week via Twitter.
The idea isn’t to shock and awe, nor is it to brag.

But there are a few objectives to this social experiment:

  • Study the ridicule/comments that follow along my posts and question, challenge and understand why these occur.
  • Associate my eating habits with reality (I’ll expand on this).
  • Encourage myself to make healthier eating habits (not just for a first impression) but as a lifestyle change.

This mini social experiment may help myself come to a dreaded realization that I need to start eating better (maybe through a little embarrassment and through my raw life). “Associate my eating habits with reality” simply means that its easy to choose a McDonalds $1 Buffalo Ranch McChicken, log it into MyFitnessPal and call it done. Its an entirely different monster when you have picture-PROOF staring back at you – maybe causing some calorie guilt and making you think twice before ordering one again tomorrow.

As I have mentioned before, I am a Bride-To-Be. Along with the potential positive eating habits I may attain from this experiment, I will also aspire to use this experience as a tool to become the healthiest I can be before (and after) my wedding day.

Foodiecisions (the combination of “foodie” and “decisions”) is the hashtag on my twitter that you can track me with. Follow me and tweet your encouragement (or disgust)

@brittanybefit

Thanks for buzzing by——————————Brittany

I was Skeptical, but it works!

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As you guys know I’m preparing for a wedding next fall. I’d like to use something once a week just to slightly brighten my smile for my big day. We’ve all tried the rinses, gels and pastes before, but their promises areoverzealous, and they usually leave us sensitive and/or disappointed.

I happened to find this system on YouTube advertised for less than $10 by KandeeJohnson’s “How to get really white teeth for cheap” video. (She is one of the sweetest people ever! Check her out!)
THEN I looked up about a dozen more reviews by other YouTubers.

All I can say is:
Plus White 5 Minute Premier Whitening System’s Speed Whitening Gel actually does work after one use!

I went to Walmart 11/23/2014.
The gel costs $4.97. And two football mouth guards cost $.97/each.
$7 for a brighter smile? YES PLEASE!

The directions say you can leave it on for up to 20 minutes (which I did)  and I have absolutely no sensitivity. You can also use it up to twice a day (no more than 14 consecutive days) .

Please reply if you have tried this system and let me know how it works out for you!

I’m sorry for the angles being a bit different in the picture, but I assure you they are both me!

Thanks for buzzing by! —————————Brittany

(please note: My opinions were not endorsed and I purchased these products with my own money.)